美國(guó)男演員德雷克·貝爾透露他在2005年錄制的歌曲是關(guān)于他的性虐待的

Drake Bell is revealing that a song from his debut album hinted at the sexual abuse he survived as a teen, nearly two decades before he publicly acknowledged the traumatic experience in the recent docuseries, Quiet on Set: The Dark Side of Kids TV.

德雷克·貝爾透露，他的首張專輯中的一首歌暗示了他在青少年時(shí)期遭受的性虐待，近20年后，他在最近的紀(jì)錄片《安靜的片場(chǎng):兒童電視的陰暗面》中公開承認(rèn)了這一創(chuàng)傷經(jīng)歷。

In a new TikTok, the Drake & Josh actor shared that he wrote “In the End, a song from his 2005 debut album, Telegraph, in response to the pain of the sexual abuse he faced from Nickelodeon dialogue coach Brian Peck. “Wrote this song when I was 15 about what happened before I said anything to anyone,” Bell shared in the video.

這位出演《德雷克與喬什》的演員在新的TikTok上分享說，他在2005年的首張專輯《電訊報(bào)》(Telegraph)中寫了一首歌《最終》(In the End)，以回應(yīng)尼克國(guó)際兒童頻道(Nickelodeon)對(duì)話教練布萊恩·派克(Brian Peck)對(duì)他性侵的痛苦。貝爾在視頻中分享道:“這首歌是我15歲時(shí)寫的，講述的是在我對(duì)任何人說任何事情之前發(fā)生的事情。”

“In the End” features lyrics like “In the end, are you stronger?/Do you no longer need to recover?/And where have you been since it's been over?/Over my shoulder, under my skin, will you ever return again?”

“In the End”的歌詞是“In the End, you are stronger?”/你不再需要恢復(fù)了嗎?/事情結(jié)束后你去哪兒了?/在我的肩膀上，在我的皮膚下，你還會(huì)回來嗎?”

Other lyrics like “The monsters in your head have left you/All to yourself, it's alright/If ugly little things remind you of how it felt/Another day, no one tells you what it means” also take on new meaning with the retroactive context of Peck’s repeated abuse of Bell in the years preceding the song. Peck, whom Bell met as a cast member of The Amanda Show, was arrested in 2003 and convicted of child molestation in 2004.

其他歌詞，如“你腦子里的怪物已經(jīng)離開了你/一切留給你自己，沒關(guān)系/如果丑陋的小事情讓你想起它的感覺/又一天，沒有人告訴你它意味著什么”，在這首歌之前的幾年里，佩克反復(fù)辱罵貝爾，這也有了新的含義。佩克是貝爾在出演《阿曼達(dá)秀》時(shí)認(rèn)識(shí)的，她于2003年被捕，并于2004年被判猥褻兒童罪。

Bell released four additional albums since his musical debut in 2005. His sixth album, Non-Stop Flight, is set to release sometime this year. The first single, “I Kind of Relate,” features a music video that directly references some of the most troubling incidents from the singer’s tumultuous personal life. 

貝爾自2005年出道以來，又發(fā)行了四張專輯。他的第六張專輯《不停的飛行》將于今年發(fā)行。第一首單曲《I Kind of Relate》的音樂視頻直接提到了這位歌手動(dòng)蕩的個(gè)人生活中一些最令人不安的事件。

“I don’t wanna sound like I did this for promotion or anything, but I am working on a new album, I just released a new music video that actually talks about this,” Bell said in an interview with The Sarah Fraser Show. “The very opening scene deals with what I went through in the documentary, my car accident, going into rehab.”

貝爾在接受《莎拉·弗雷澤秀》采訪時(shí)說:“我不想讓人覺得我這樣做是為了宣傳或其他什么，但我正在制作一張新專輯，我剛剛發(fā)布了一個(gè)新的音樂視頻，實(shí)際上是在談?wù)撨@件事。”“最開場(chǎng)的場(chǎng)景就是我在紀(jì)錄片中經(jīng)歷的事情，我的車禍，去戒毒所。”

The video begins with a child actor (who represents Bell) being led into a trailer by a much-older man, who suspiciously closes the blinds. The camera then pans to present-day Bell in a car crash surrounded by paparazzi — presumably a nod to his 2015 DUI arrest. The video later shows Bell attending a meeting resembling an Alcoholics Anonymous session before the singer finds a new home in Mexico, where his music is more popular than in the U.S.

視頻開始時(shí)，一名童星(代表貝爾)被一名年長(zhǎng)得多的男子帶進(jìn)了一輛拖車，此人可疑地關(guān)上了百葉窗。然后，鏡頭轉(zhuǎn)向了現(xiàn)在的貝爾，他被狗仔隊(duì)包圍著發(fā)生車禍——大概是對(duì)他2015年酒后駕車被捕的致意。這段視頻后來顯示，貝爾參加了一個(gè)類似于匿名戒酒會(huì)的會(huì)議，之后他在墨西哥找到了一個(gè)新家，他的音樂在墨西哥比在美國(guó)更受歡迎。

The song also features lyrics like “I’m running away/From the abuse and all the shame” and “I found love in Mexico/‘Cause no one wants to hear me/In the States” that clearly reflect Bell’s career. He also sings “She left me unaware/‘Cause I didn’t care/For anything dear to her,” which may be a reference to the singer’s wife filing for divorce in 2023.

這首歌的歌詞還包括“我正在逃離/從虐待和所有的恥辱”和“我在墨西哥找到了愛/因?yàn)闆]有人想聽我/在美國(guó)”，這些歌詞清楚地反映了貝爾的職業(yè)生涯。他還唱到“她離開我不知道/因?yàn)槲也辉诤?/font>/她所珍愛的一切”，這可能是指這位歌手的妻子在2023年申請(qǐng)離婚。