暮光之城?暮色 第265期:第十六章 卡萊爾(3)
知道他是為了我才這樣大聲說話，也是件讓人困擾的事。
After another warm smile for me, Carlisle left the room.
卡萊爾再次向我溫和地一笑，然后離開了房間。
I stared at the little picture of Carlisle's hometown for a long moment.
我看著這張小小的關(guān)于卡萊爾的家鄉(xiāng)的圖畫，看了許久。
"What happened then?" I finally asked, staring up at Edward, who was watching me. "When herealized what had happened to him?"
“后來發(fā)生了什么?”我最終問道，抬頭看著愛德華，他正注視著我。“在他意識到自己發(fā)生了什么事以后?”
He glanced back to the paintings, and I looked to see which image caught his interest now. Itwas a larger landscape in dull fall colors — an empty, shadowed meadow in a forest, with acraggy peak in the distance.
他看回了那些油畫上，而我看到了是什么樣的圖畫吸引了他的興趣。那是一張更大的風(fēng)景畫，用各種黯淡的秋色畫成的——森林中的一片空蕩蕩的，晦暗的草地，遠(yuǎn)處是一座險(xiǎn)峻的山峰。
"When he knew what he had become," Edward said quietly, "he rebelled against it. He tried todestroy himself. But that's not easily done."
“當(dāng)他知道自己變成了什么以后，”愛德華安靜地說道。“他十分厭惡這一點(diǎn)。他試圖毀滅自己。但這不是件容易的事?”
"How?" I didn't mean to say it aloud, but the word broke through my shock.
“怎樣?”我并不是有意要這樣大聲地說出來的，但這些話在震驚中沖口而出。
"He jumped from great heights," Edward told me, his voice impassive. "He tried to drownhimself in the ocean… but he was young to the new life, and very strong. It is amazing that hewas able to resist… feeding… while he was still so new. The instinct is more powerful then, ittakes over everything. But he was so repelled by himself that he had the strength to try to killhimself with starvation."
“他從很高的海拔上跳了下來。”愛德華告訴我，他的聲音很冷淡。“他試圖把自己溺死在海里……但他剛剛經(jīng)歷了新生，非常年輕，也非常強(qiáng)壯。最驚人的是他居然能夠忍耐住……不進(jìn)食……在他還是新手的時候。那時那種本能會更為強(qiáng)烈，幾乎可以征服一切。但他是如此地厭惡自己，他的信念是如此地堅(jiān)強(qiáng)，居然想要餓死自己。”
"Is that possible?" My voice was faint.
“這可能嗎?”我的聲音很微弱。
"No, there are very few ways we can be killed."
“不，沒有多少方法能殺死我們。”
I opened my mouth to ask, but he spoke before I could.
我張開嘴想要提問，但在我出聲以前他就說話了。
"So he grew very hungry, and eventually weak. He strayed as far as he could from the humanpopulace, recognizing that his willpower was weakening, too. For months he wandered bynight, seeking the loneliest places, loathing himself.
“所以他非常的饑餓，而且最終虛弱起來。他在遠(yuǎn)離人群的地方流浪，他認(rèn)識到自己的意志力也在變得薄弱。一連好幾個月他在夜里游蕩著，尋找著最孤寂的地方，嫌惡著自己。”
